Infatuation

I am tired of everything. Almost everything.
Still hasn't recovered from my dry cough, and it is getting so  frustrating. More than a week alr..i wonder what's wrong with me.
This friday shall be my last performance of my life. Hopefully it goes well..end it with a good note! (:  *fingers-crossed

Urgh. I have been coughing like mad ever since Friday. Worst still, i couldn't resist the temptation of ice-cream and my all-time favourite --chocolates! Can't help popping those sinful stuffs into my mouth..

Went out yesterday to have a 'friendly match' with bestie. No doubt, i am the best around (: But you did improve lah..at least the last match you didnt lose too badly to me! hehe.

Harold and i went for our weekly swim. Surprisingly, there was a bunch of ____  at such an early time, partly because the pool is private. I don't dare to swim with them..coz i dont wish to become like them! haha, only harold and bestie know what i am driving at eh?
While we were having our lunch at cine, harold saw his ex. From what i gathered, they still keep in contact.  Hmm, i guess anyone will feel kinda inbalanced if they see their ex with another new guy or girl. Although he told me he doesn't feel anything, but i could see somehow he is bothered.
That's why i told him that if you truly have no more feeling with your ex, you should really steer away from her. Sometimes knowing too much about their new life might not be any good to you. Nevermind bud, you still have me! HAHA (:

Recently i watched a chinese variety where Joanne Peh was featured in it. Man, i always thought she looks tomboy-ish..but i actually got mesmerised by her. Never knew that she looks that beautiful. hehe. She fits nearly all my qualities for gf ( must be at least same age or older; tall; slim; long hair). She got that kinda x-factor that captivates me. (:

Alright, things aren't getting better. Time's running out..i guess now all of us have to work doubly hard.
The test for today was really crap..my mind wasn't thinking of the questions in front of me. Felt so sorry that Mr Lee is disappointed in our performance.
We know we weren't great, never from the start. But i know that he holds great expectation in all of us..and once again we let him down.
The same goes to Mr Sami. You could feel his frustration from the comments he wrote in our paper. Suddenly i felt so ashamed of myself for putting forth only that little measly effort in his assignment,. To say the truth, i really feel very motivated from his teaching. But it is just the plain laziness in me that always kept me from doing his work on time, and with standard.
This brings me to Mr Chua. He knows what i am going through..and from his eyes, i can see he knew alot of things about us. I promised myself that from now on i will hand in his work on time.

Do you believe in karma? I never trusted in such things before..but i could see it returning back for it's debt. Is it only just when things get ugly that one will try to see what is really happening around them?
Give it a thought.

Today i woke up early at 7am despite sleeping at only 4 last night.
Harold called me down for a swim at his place. Thanks for your advice, but i think it may take more time than i could imagine.

Went out with bestie to study chemistry, and i had a bad encounter with a woman at the foodcourt. She is the worst kind i ever seen. It makes me feel relieve that i am not 100% singaporean.
We then went to spent our afternoon away with some badminton fun. Though it's windy, i enjoyed myself then..thks to her ability to liven my mood.

I have been giving that idea a pass for the last few months. This last week of school i shall spent some time pondering over it.
It may well come true, i don't know..I can only wait and see how it goes from here. But i hope all of you will respect my decision. No hard feeling at the end.

Thks fiona for your concern. I hope we can chill out someday. I hope you are doing fine too, my dear. (:

Today i went for my first maths trail experience, as an ambassador. (:
Haha, pingfan says he feel like adult today..cause he never lead any students before.
True enough? We feel so accomplished when we found back their scoresheet! Lucky us.
Believe me, they never show any sign of urgency when they realised they dropped it along the way.
Kids are still kids..

The usual gang then went for movie treat. Night at the museum seems like an interesting option, but in the end we really didn't enjoy much.
Told you should have watched A&D, Jeremy~
Bestie spotted a nice bag shop and told me to go have a look..hmm. I really like that brown duffel bag (:

Just something stupid happened when we were relaxing near the 'pool'.



A bunch of stupid little weirdos came dashing through the 'pool' while all of us are lying down. That's not all man, one of kids (should be their leader?) came right infront of nareyn and started splashing water at us!
Urgh. They even splash it onto my psp..now it has gone abit haywired. Damn.
May they burn in hell...(ah, just joking (: )

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A couple of days back, daddy called home to ask for our well-beings.
I was nonchalant at the start, never actually focused on talking with him.
Then i started to talk about my school-work. Just so coincidentally, i saw my PW cert and told him my results.
To my disbelief, he told me, " well done son."
I was speechless. I only score a B grade.
Ever since i started schooling, i know he always want me to excel in my studies. He set very high standard for me than my other two siblings.
I remembered how he always sent me to all sorts of tuition ( i even went for art-and-craft and abacus tuition!) and no matter how great my results were, he overlooks them and always want me to strive harder at other areas.
Very vividly, this happened the same way when i topped any subject at secondary or JC. You don't know how frustrating it is to know that your parent actually can forget about how well you did the day after, but remember all your weaknesses so clearly.
It stops me from moving forward, because i don't find any meaning in whatever i do.


Maybe from the way i was brought up, i tend to be more independent and 'cool' in some sense. I do not let people into my softer side, but it is usually that small kind gesture they made that will melt away the barrier.
This is what i yearn for, probably.

It is not like what you have saw or heard from them today.
I only treat her as someone i admire..not someone i like now.
Shucks.
This feeling keeps bugging me.
Dont get the wrong idea, will you?

I like you.

It has been eons since i last updated..but here it goes.

Life has been getting better? Or maybe i got used to everything.
I am used to living with sister, although we have hired some part-time maid to help out when we were really tired.
Nonetheless, i am really happy to have her with me.
She meant alot to me, seriously.

School-life is getting hectic and mundane.
Thanks to the buddies in my class, they fill my days with laughter.
I treasure the time i have with them.. Haha.

Ian just called me not long ago telling me how good life was at Aus.
Do you know how much i envy him? He was even in the same uni as my friend~! Damn coincidence.
Hmm. 2 years from now i wonder where i will be sent to? Wynonna and bianca were sent to england, chris and damon to wales.
I wish granny send me to Europe too..i love their culture. (:

Time to pull up my socks.